Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Society

I was listening to the news over Michelle house, not watching just listening occasionally and I had a thought......I do not care what your religious background maybe or even what God you pray to but I really do not think that any of them thought as a world we would act like this towards one another. Even Loki I am sure is saying to himself "Wow even I wasn't that much of an ass". Roman Goddess Athena, Goddess of warfare wore many hats, she was also the Goddess of civilization, wisdom, strength, strategy, crafts, justice and skill. With those sort of credentials you can tell she went to war only if she had to not because it was fun to kill people.

Through my searching and searching no God whether it be God, Jehovah, Allah, Buddha, Any of the Roman or Greek Gods believe in this much violence. They understood blood shed as a necessity but not to just do it. Don't blame Satan/Devil or what ever you want to call him either, yes yes yes I know it is his grand plan to steal and kill off God's creation which is man but I don't think he is to blame for the shotguns, automatic rifles, Uzi's, and hand guns.

John Browning was a Mormon, Smith and Wesson were both Christian as well as William Winchester. No Satanist here so sorry blaming Satan doesn't work.

So who is to blame for just down right stupidity? Some may say parents and some say genetics or race. I have heard people say "they need God in their life"...Really??? Where was the parent who should have taken them to church? Oh, mom was was a crack whore and dad was gone and no one cared so you decided the only way to make it through life was to intimidate people, you had no one? Brother/Sister, Aunt/Uncle or a friend of the family? I am sure you had someone, you were just to lazy to look and found the easy way out.......or so you thought. (places the rose on the coffin) you will be missed (maybe).

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The void in its entirety

Part 1

Things are dark in this room, what little light does get in does not offer any ray of hope, all seems to be lost. Do I see a silver lining.... no, but when the mask you wear portrays you as the optimistic one life can be difficult. I have my own issues and nothing ever changes... no money, no job and after 10 months of this shit well that's another blog all within itself. You get tired of looking you know..for jobs. With the unemployment rate at 13% in just the Bay Area and the Bay Area has roughly 7 million people living in it do the math.

Any way back to the void....................

You get numb, you don't sleep, hell you don't even want to eat but you do. Sex is not an option any more, your man hood has been raped off of you like pirates coming a shore for the first time in a year and your the only woman in town. Drinking is an option but seriously most people drink to get numb so that would just be redundant.

The voices can be interesting, I find they can be amusing at times, the conversations, the idol gossip and the stupid arguments all in my head for my entertainment. It's dark, it's cold and there is nothing. Can you hear the echos?

Part 2

As I still sit in the void I noticed that it was particularly quiet. Wait, the voices they are gone. The interesting stories, idol gossip and the stupid arguments gone!!! Is this a good thing? Hello, ello llo lo lo, well the echos are still here. Has the void gotten so massive that I can't even hear myself think anymore?

Wait is that light, a shimmer of hope...yes! I see two shapes they look friendly but I must be careful.

Who are you? I ask.....wait for it "We are neither you or them" the shapes say. What? what the hell does that mean I ask, it means "we are not you and not the people you think we might be" the shapes say. Well that clears that up. Ummm, why are you here? I ask, "You are in a dark void, your life has all but stalled and you see no hope and you ask why are WE here? Okay, pretty stupid question... so you are here to help? NO say the shapes...We are not you nor are we them. Okay, Mr/Mrs shape person I know you are not me but can you shed some light on who THEM might be? "No we are not you"....okay wait, let me get this straight. You are dark shapes that are not me or them but if you were ME you would know who THEM is? Correct!!!!!

WTF!!!!

For the record I have never taken any drug stronger than Vicodin while being in the Void.

So let me see if i have this straight...I see light which is making me see two shapes and they are NOT ME nor are they THEM. Okay interesting riddle

Question Who is not me? Answer Them, No one else is me.
Question Who is not them? Answer Me, I am not them because I am me.
Question Why are they here? No answer for this yet.

Main question....Do you think I have lost my mind?

Part 3

Let's take this back a step as a reminder...I had asked, "Let me see if I got this straight? I see light which is making me see two shapes and they are not me nor are they them. Okay interesting riddle.

Question Who is not me? Answer them
Question Who is not them? Answer Me
Question Why are the shapes here? No answer yet.

Main question .....Do you think I have lost my mind?

Back into the Void we go....

The sun is letting more light in now and the shapes begin to take form, funny they look similar to me. I ask "are you a manifestation of my mind"? hmmm silence. The shapes begin to slowly move into the darkness and in the silence you begin to hear the whispers. After a while one speaks... What do you want most in this world "well I have been in this place for 8 months now a shower would be nice"!!!! Okay, no sense of humor I see.... fine. Umm...OUT of this dark gloomy place? The whispers start over again...The other speaks in an authoritative voice "What are you waiting for"?Ummmm...Ummmmm I don't really know? The authoritative says well don't you think that you should? "Should what? ?Know or get out of here" I say. A sigh comes out of the shapes.


Ok let us help you....
Who is not me.....Us are that's who the shapes say....wait I thought you were them, no we said we are not them.... we are us, "well who the hell is us"? I ask..... then it hits... US is me. Us is all that I am. Everything and everyone who defines my life. Very good Bob you are learning, as the shapes get clearer and clearer.

Who is not them.....Me....You see... I can't be them, I need to be me, not someones version of me because then I would be them., and well that would be absurd. I need to be me so there will be an us.

Why were the shapes there....They were reminding me of the past, constantly and well it is now time to push through that tough barrier and come out shinning. I will always love you Dad and losing you was the toughest thing I have ever had to go through. I made you a promise.....My hand to God dad I will do the very best I can to honor it.

So have I lost my mind?....I really hope so.....I hate to think someone normal wrote all of this HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The shapes vanish without a trace...the sky is becoming clearer...I think I am going to be okay.


Special thanks to Michelle, Veronica and Janine for being the 3 different shapes that shaped me the most in my life. I love you all

The Void Revisted

Let's take this back a step as a reminder...I had asked, "Let me see if I got this straight? I see light which is making me see two shapes and they are not me nor are they them. Okay interesting riddle.

Question Who is not me? Answer them
Question Who is not them? Answer Me
Question Why are the shapes here? No answer yet.

Main question .....Do you think I have lost my mind?

Back into the Void we go....

The sun is letting more light in now and the shapes begin to take form, funny they look similar to me. I ask "are you a manifestation of my mind"? hmmm silence. The shapes begin to slowly move into the darkness and in the silence you begin to hear the whispers. After a while one speaks... What do you want most in this world "well I have been in this place for 8 months now a shower would be nice"!!!! Okay, no sense of humor I see.... fine. Umm...OUT of this dark gloomy place? The whispers start over again...The other speaks in an authoritative voice "What are you waiting for"?Ummmm...Ummmmm I don't really know? The authoritative says well don't you think that you should? "Should what? ?Know or get out of here" I say. A sigh comes out of the shapes.


Ok let us help you....
Who is not me.....Us are that's who the shapes say....wait I thought you were them, no we said we are not them.... we are us, "well who the hell is us"? I ask..... then it hits... US is me. Us is all that I am. Everything and everyone who defines my life. Very good Bob you are learning as the shapes get clearer and clearer.

Who is not them.....Me....You see I can't be them, I need to be me, not someones version of me because then I would be them., and well the would be absurd. I need to be me so there will be an us.

Why were the shapes there....They were reminding me of the past, constantly and well it is now time to push through that tough barrier and come out shinning. I will always love you Dad and losing you was the toughest thing I have ever had to go through. I made you a promise.....My hand to God dad I will do the very best I can to honor it.

So have I lost my mind?....I really hope so.....I hate to think someone normal wrote all of this HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The shapes vanish without a trace...the sky is becoming clearer...I think I am going to be okay.


Special thanks to Michelle, Veronica and Janine for being the 3 different shapes that shaped me the most in my life. I love you all

Monday, February 14, 2011

Weird...St. Valentine's and Epilepsy

I did not write this but I found it interesting enough to post. For those of you with Bibles can you clarify the passages....

St Valentine and others - patron saints of epilepsy

St. Valentine is recognized in the Christian world as the patron saint of epilepsy. But who was he and why did he become particularly linked to epilepsy?

To answer these questions we need to understand something of the historical and cultural perception of illness and disease generally and of epilepsy in particular.

Epilepsy has a much longer history than Christianity. It has been recognized for at least 4,000 years and it was invariably connected to the gods in the ancient cultures that pre-dated Christianity. The ancient Egyptians, the Hindus in ancient India and the Aztecs and Incas in Central America all linked epilepsy to their gods.

In ancient times there were no natural explanations for the cause or symptoms of epilepsy. The condition was therefore seen to be a supernatural event where the gods had both the power to inflict epilepsy on people (as punishment, atonement or a challenge) and to release people from it. Epilepsy itself was often thought of as an evil spirit or demon inhabiting the unfortunate human. So it was presumed that relief from epilepsy was only possible by invoking the help of the gods.

It is perhaps not surprising then that Christianity should maintain this tradition and also link epilepsy to God. In early Christian times when medicine was rudimentary and in the absence of any other effective treatments, the possibility of divine intervention at least brought comfort and hope if not cure.

If proof were needed of the divine relationship with epilepsy, the Bible contains many references in the New Testament to the power of God over illness and adversity and of Jesus healing the sick. In particular there are some quite specific references to epilepsy, such as Matthew 4:24. Arguably the most famous epilepsy healing reference in the Bible can be found in Mark 9:17-27; Matthew 17:14-18 and Luke 9:37-43 which all describe Jesus healing the boy with epilepsy by driving out an evil spirit.

Then there is the description in Acts 9:3-9 where St. Paul, or Saul as he was known before his conversion to Christianity, is reported to experience what many believe to be an epileptic seizure on his way to Damascus; falling to the ground, hearing God and losing his sight for three days. That this was an epileptic seizure is given even more credence by the fact that sight impediment – including temporary blindness lasting from several hours to several days – has actually been observed as a symptom or a result of an epileptic seizure.

St Paul himself perhaps provides further evidence of his epilepsy when he talks about his “physical ailment” in his letters; (2 Corinthians 12:7 and in Galatians 4:13-14). This connection between Saint Paul and epilepsy was so strongly perceived that in old Ireland, for example, epilepsy was sometimes known as 'Saint Paul's disease'.

Even with God’s power established as the cure for epilepsy, few Middle Age Christians would dare to approach Him directly. Instead, they would turn to the Saints of the church to intercede on their behalf and ask God for His help. The more serious and dangerous the illness or disease, the greater the number of patron saints that were responsible for it. Over the centuries a certain degree of specialization developed but by the Christian Middle Ages epilepsy had about forty saintly helpers, a number only exceeded by the plague, which had more than sixty.

Of these forty saints for epilepsy, the best known by far is Saint Valentine. But who are the others? Some, like St. Anthony the Abbot, were known in their lifetimes as healers. Others, like St. Apollinaris and St. Giles, were considered to be miracle workers. Their reputation for “curing” epilepsy made them obvious choices for
people to appeal to.

The fourth century Italian St. Bibiana is a patron saint because a church was built over her grave and in the garden an herb grew that cured headache and epilepsy. In the same way, the burial site of the Irish St. Dymphna became known for its miraculous healings and her relics are reported to cure epilepsy. Other patron saints have tombs with curative powers that are reported to be especially effective in relation to epilepsy. These include the 7th Century Irish St. Catald, the 13th Century French St. Gerard of Lunel and the 10th Century Belgian St. Guy of Anderlecht.

Other Saints, like St. Severin of Noricum, St. Ubald of Gubbio and St. Cyriakus have been identified as being helpful and beneficent to people with epilepsy although not sufficiently so to be considered patrons of the condition.

One patron saint who does come close to the significance of St. Valentine is the 4th Century Italian St. Vitus. It is claimed that he freed the Roman Emperor Diocletian's son from an evil spirit (epilepsy?). When he would not sacrifice to the pagan gods in celebration, his cure was attributed to sorcery, and he was put to death. Probably because of this incident, St. Vitus was often called upon in the Middle Ages to help people with epilepsy. These intercessions were so successful in providing cures that his reputation grew and in some parts of Europe the condition even came to be called "St. Vitus' Dance". In more modern times St. Vitus’ Dance is used as another name for the movement disorder Chorea.

But what of St. Valentine himself, the best known of all the epilepsy patron saints. Who was he and how did he come to be so closely associated with the condition?

The story is far from simple. To begin with there is more than one St. Valentine. Valentinus was a priest in Rome and a physician in the 3rd century AD. To be a Christian at this time was a crime punishable by death. Despite this, Valentinus would not renounce his faith and he was beheaded by order of Emperor Claudius II on February 14 270 AD. At about the same time there also lived Valentine the Bishop of Interamna (now called Terni) in Umbria, Italy. He was scourged, imprisoned, and then beheaded for being a Christian. He had a reputation for praying for the sick to be made well and just prior to his death is said to have restored the sight of the daughter of his jailer. Tradition has it that these two men are in fact the same person, that Valentinus the Roman priest became the Bishop of Interamna and was brought to Rome for his execution. Whoever he was, a Roman Valentine really did exist. Archaeologists have unearthed a catacomb and an ancient church dedicated to him.

The picture becomes even more complicated by the existence of yet more St. Valentines. The most important of these is St. Valentine of Rätien or Passau. This St. Valentine became the missionary Bishop of Passau in what is now Lower Bavaria, Germany in 435 AD. After several attempts to Christianise that area, he was eventually driven away. He then worked as a bishop without a location as he continued his missionary efforts in the area between the river Danube and the Alps. He died in the city which is now called Merano in about 475 AD.

The legends of both Valentines became merged together from the 9th century and it is not always possible to clearly distinguish between the two after that date. For example, in the Rhine region in the Middle Ages, there were two important places of pilgrimage that were holy to St. Valentine of Terni that were visited by many pilgrims seeking a cure for their epilepsy: Rufach in Ober-Elsass and Kiedrich im Rheingau.

The question still remains, why was St. Valentine so closely associated with epilepsy? Much is made of the phonetic similarity in the German language between the words ‘fallen’ (fall) and ‘Valentine’. This reinforced St. Valentine’s connection to epilepsy in German speaking areas and led to common names for epilepsy in German such as “Saint Valentine's illness” and “St. Valentine's affliction”. But in non-German speaking areas St. Valentine’s patronage was not so strong. In France, for example, Saint Johannes was an important helper for combating epilepsy (mal de Saint Jean), and in Anglo-Saxon countries, especially in Catholic Ireland, it was Saint Paul.

The reputation of a Saint to be able to help is based upon his or her apparent success. Over the centuries St. Valentine would have been called upon by thousands of Christians with epilepsy. If only by the law of averages he would have been credited with many miraculous cures and healings. Stories about these would have spread far and wide so enhancing his reputation and increasing the number of people who would turn to him for help which in turn would have led to yet more success stories. And so the connection with epilepsy is made and then reinforced down the ages.

Some of this reinforcement is seen in the iconic representations of St. Valentine healing people with epilepsy. These are frequently encountered in southern Germany, eastern Switzerland, Austria and northern Italy. The first such representation appeared in The Nuremberg Chronicle, a great illustrated book printed in 1493. They often show the Saint with a boy or man having a seizure or apparently recovering from a seizure. This seems to echo the biblical story of Jesus curing the boy with epilepsy.

Arguably the greatest debate surrounding St. Valentine is not about who he was or why he is connected to epilepsy. It is about whether or not he is actually beneficial to people with epilepsy. Still today there is much about epilepsy that cannot be naturally explained. In such circumstances people will continue to seek alternative rationales to try and make sense of their condition in whatever way they can. If this brings people comfort and hope and helps them to cope with their condition, just as it did in ancient times, who is to say this is not beneficial?

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Call you right back?

I was wondering what does the phrase "Call you right back" mean. So what constitutes right back? 5 minutes, 10 minutes certainly not more than 30 minutes that would be absurd, yet sometimes we don't call back for hours at a time. 1 minute, now that certainly classifies itself as "right back" as a matter of fact most of us now a days are surprised when someone calls us right back within a minute, doesn't seem to make sense. I have hung up from someone and started to do something and the person called me right back and it was frustrating. I guess we need guidelines for these little rules in life, I remember as a little kid "right back" meant I ran as fast as I could to point A and back to point B. I guess you might say we are in a paradox.......right back at you!!!!!